How I get Through the Day

I have never hidden the fact that I think babies are boring. Adorable, lovely and boring. You can’t have a conversation with them. You repeat the same games and exercises every day. My little Beans naps while she is nursing so I’m stuck in the rocking chair for an hour most days. Which just means I’m super caught up on all my TV shows.

When I had visited a counselor in the early days of Beans’ life she asked me what I look forward to each day. I couldn’t answer her at the time. My days were so filled with nursing and sitting that it didn’t feel like there was anything different to look forward to.

Now that Beans is 6 months old I have things I look forward to and that remembering them helps me stay in the moment and engage fully with her. Granted, I’m still bored as shit singing Little Green Frog and Head and Shoulders, Knees and Toes every day but I’m less bored than I was 4 months ago.

I look forward to…

1. Breakfast. Now that Beans is eating food, breakfast is crazy adorable. I love watching her try new foods and mashing them all over her face and chair. It seems to be the way her the dog are bonding. Beans stares at Alice, the dog, while she tries to eat some boiled egg. Alice just stands there waiting for the inevitable moment when food hits the floor.

2. Swim class. Once a week I take Beans to the pool for half an hour where she floats and gets mad me for dunking her underwater with 10 other baby/parent combos. Her little swim diaper is so cute and watching her figure out that putting her face in the water is amazing.

3. 4:30/5:00 pm. Adam gets home. No matter what Beans and I are doing as soon as she hears the door, she is looking for him. It melts my heart when she smiles at him when he is finally in plain view.

4. Walking the dog at lunch. Usually I am not necessarily a big fan of walking my dog. She pulls the leash, tries to chase squirrels and can be a dick to other dogs sometimes but when we are walking with Beans she doesn’t do that as much. She listens to me. She is protective of my baby and that makes me love her. Also I love that I have to leave the house every day. It doesn’t hurt that the hour we are outside Beans is happy in the carrier napping or looking around at the world.

5. Nap time. Like I said, babies are boring and nap time is when I get to do something other than play on the floor. It might just be washing the dishes or sweeping the floor or pumping but for twenty glorious minutes I’m not singing The Wheels on the Bus.

6. When the coffee is ready. Cannot function without it.

7. Bedtime. It’s such a special time when she nurses to sleep while I sing her lullabies. And then she is asleep and I can have a beer with my husband and maybe play a game or just cuddle on the couch or whatever. It’s so nice to just be an adult with him at the end of the day.

This list changes all the time. I’m sure it will be different in another 6 months and I think that’s what I’m looking forward to the most.


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